vishuddha ॐ visions

I’m literally only remotely tired from fighting my own mind because of this insomnia. I’m mentally exhausted from trying to force myself to sleep.
The sun is lighting up the sky now & the birds are chirping right on cue, its scary really, how something really controls your mind like this. almost like I dread night time & feel relieved the battle is over when I see the sun.
I’ll give myself another hour maybe more before I fall asleep.

Diary of an Insomniac xx

I want to feel tired.

I want to feel sleepy.

I want to feel comfy.

I want that happy feeling of laying down and drifting off

I want to SLEEP. 

I never wish insomnia on anyone ever. Don’t ever take sleep for granted. What I would give to have a normal sleep pattern and to feel refreshed with a good nights rest. 

Goodnight to all my loves who are actually able to rest peacefully, sweetest dreams xx.

i’m listening to john mayer eating granola in the dark..waiting for my sleepytime tea to cool.

this has been one of the worst insomnia nights i’ve had in a very long time….i literally am helpless, i’ve tried everything. 

eating cereal in the dark is difficult…

Like really, it is the most frusterating experience ever & I hope that none of you have to go through it.

I am literally battling with my mind & begging my body to rest. I am mentally exsausted & I literally try everything to try and make myself fall asleep. I am forced to sit alone swimming in my thoughts.. What do I do to deserve this torture! I work 8 hour days and then come home and can’t even relax.

So uncomfortable & frusterated…even my puppy can’t sleep. She keeps sighing and squirming and puts her head next to mine and stares at me. 

ok, rant is over. I hope everyone else has sweet dreams, I’ll be up contemplating my life. xx.