I’m literally only remotely tired from fighting my own mind because of this insomnia. I’m mentally exhausted from trying to force myself to sleep.
The sun is lighting up the sky now & the birds are chirping right on cue, its scary really, how something really controls your mind like this. almost like I dread night time & feel relieved the battle is over when I see the sun.
I’ll give myself another hour maybe more before I fall asleep.
Like really, it is the most frusterating experience ever & I hope that none of you have to go through it.
I am literally battling with my mind & begging my body to rest. I am mentally exsausted & I literally try everything to try and make myself fall asleep. I am forced to sit alone swimming in my thoughts.. What do I do to deserve this torture! I work 8 hour days and then come home and can’t even relax.
So uncomfortable & frusterated…even my puppy can’t sleep. She keeps sighing and squirming and puts her head next to mine and stares at me.
ok, rant is over. I hope everyone else has sweet dreams, I’ll be up contemplating my life. xx.